Why India? Why me?

‘God works in mysterious ways’  

I first met Patricia Torok on 25th February 2012, on a Christian online video conference  with Carlotta Waldmann and seven other people. We were all sharing testimonies and speaking of God’s goodness. Patricia and I began to talk privately together and our friendship grew rapidly. Within weeks we were pouring out our hearts to each other! In conversation we said that in the future, one day we would be ministering together.

Patricia invited me to go to India, seeing my potential and gifting’s. I on the other hand, felt like the expectations of man were overcoming me! I’m used to swimming in the deep end, but this felt like I was having to dive from a 20 meter platform!

My battle with Self-Worth

I was very excited about India but I was apprehensive about my performance. Pastors there would be advertising “Evangelist Patricia Torok and Prophetess Deborah Butt” – how could I live up to such an expectation? I know my destiny of a Prophetess but I am definitely not stepping out in even a fraction of its potential! Would people ask me for words/prophecies or direction in their lives? What if I get it wrong? What about leading worship? I knew it wasn’t about my individual performance because I was only going for God, but I was really concerned about what people would think of me.

The week before I traveled to India, I visited my parents because my Dad was rushed to hospital. During my stay there, I was compelled to go to a local Church. It just so happened that the man speaking that night was a full time minister that traveled Europe doing healing meetings. He spoke about the amazing creative miracles he had seen. This stirred up the passion and excitement in my heart. At the end, I went forward asking for prayer about my struggle with peoples expectations. God spoke directly to my heart through him, reassuring me that everything would come naturally to me and that God would provide my every need.

Jehovah Jireh – God our provider 

Since God had confirmed so many times that I was going to go to India with Patricia, money was not an issue or worry for me. I couldn’t afford to go. I didn’t have any spare money to go towards the trip. I earn so little at the moment that I am spending my earnings on living costs. I knew that because God wanted me there, He was gonna get me there! I had no other option either!

I received many gifts from people that enabled me to get everything I needed for the trip including the plane ticket. Within the last week before my trip I was still in need of £400. God set me up in positions where old friends were asking to spend time with me in order to give me more gifts for India. I just had to rely on God.

The morning I was leaving to start the journey to India I was £50 short – I hadn’t had enough finances to purchase the flight ticket. I had everything else except the ticket for the plane! Holy Spirit had got my heart and silently spoke to me and I knew that all I had to do was trust! I got on a coach to travel to the airport, still not having enough money. Just an hour before I arrived, someone had transferred exactly £50 into my bank account, enabling me to buy my ticket at the airport. Praise the Lord!! Patricia had told an Indian pastor that my flight number was F-A-I-T-H!

Faith is spelt ‘R-I-S-K’

On arriving India on the morning of the 3rd of November, all my past worries about peoples preconceptions of a young prophetess from England had disappeared. God had actually got me there! It was surreal to meet Patricia for the first time at Hyderabad airport. God’s plan had worked out and been successful. On a few occasions I said to Holy Spirit “You’ve actually got me here? Nice one!!! Well done!!” After the crazy adventure He had got me through to arrive in India, I realized I was safe in His arms! He could protect me! He could provide for me! He could get me through anything!

In the first week of being in India I found out that I had -£0.49 in my bank account. Trusting God was getting easier for me. Since God had helped me get over my worries, provided for me and got me to India, I was certain He could provide for me whilst I was there! I ended up receiving more financial gifts and was able to even buy presents for my friends back in England.

Jehovah Mekoddishkem – The Lord Who Sanctifies You
Jehovah Jireh – The Lord Will Provide
Jehovah Tsidkenu – The Lord Our Righteousness
Jehovah Rapha – The Lord That Heals
Jehovah-Raah – The Lord My Shepherd
Jehovah Shalom – The Lord Is Peace

We are born to worship God!

Sometimes I see myself on a diving platform, ready to jump off into the pool of water far below. But Jesus is always standing right behind me, egging me on. India was completely out of my comfort zone but OH Hallelujah! God broke through my insecurities and used my weakness to make His strength perfect…

2 Corinthians 12:9  (Amplified Bible) “But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness.

Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest (yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell) upon me!”

God I thank You that You are trust worthy! You are pure! That Your yoke is easy, and Your burden is light. God I praise You for all the miracles You have done in my life. I pray that as the readers put their trust in You, that You would display Your glory where ever they go! God would You pour out Your strength and power on them, displaying supernatural miracles, signs and wonders! Empower them with boldness and security in You to preach the gospel to all men and all nations!
AMEN!

Blessings
Deborah Butt

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The Battle of Bael

It was nearing the end of our time in India when we were taken to a very remote village in the state of Tamil Nadu. As we began to enter the village by car we could hear preaching over a loud speaker, but it was not preaching Jesus. In fact it was Muslims preaching Mohammad! It has become a new venture for Islam to hold evangelistic meetings and broadcast in this manner. In 12 yrs of visiting India in cities or remote villages I have never come across this. My new missionary partner Deborah Butt of UK said “so we’re competing against Allah tonight” I said “No Problem!” I will stand toe to toe with anyone and the Gospel of Jesus Christ will always rule as the Power of the Gospel is a force to be reckoned with. “For the Word of God is Living and Powerful, sharper then any double edged sword; piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12

To be sure it was a volatile situation. We later learned that as the pastor who had scheduled this had rented a rickshaw with a speaker announcing that two women missionaries, one from America and one from UK would be preaching a message tonight at 7 pm. There became immediate opposition from both Hindu and Muslim. A few went about the village threatening people NOT to attend the meeting! This is not to be taken lightly as the persecuted church is a serious problem in India and other parts of the world. One should also be “wise as serpents and gentle as doves” Matt 10:16

Here is an amazing confession. As we sat in a side room waiting to be introduced, In the natural I did not know anything about the threats earlier in the day nor the fact that the main pastor was still trying to resolve conflict within the village. But….I looked out into the night sky and just asked the Lord for a garrison of angels round about us, then starred into the sky knowing they were there just wondering how large a company of angels that would be. That they were there was not the question. I didn’t know there was threat of an intrusion in the meeting by opposing Hindu’s and Islamist. I only knew something felt “off” in my spirit and I immediately ask for protection without giving into fear.

When we were finally called out we started off with Worship. I started with a Worship song I had written called “Ode to Abba”, followed by “I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back.” Deborah led in a few more songs and then instead of going into preaching I felt led to start off with testimonies. The pastor who had taken us there gave his testimony and we called a few from the audience to give testimonies of their experiences. Deborah gave hers which is very powerful and at last I gave mine.  I explained to the people how important our testimonies are and quoted Rev 12:11. “They overcame by the Word of their testimony and the Blood of the Lamb.” Any person can dispute your ‘doctrine or belief’ but you absolutely cannot dispute a persons personal testimony of a changed life as of the result of a personal encounter with the One True Living God Jesus Christ. I can certainly imagine that there may have been within those seated, Muslims and or Hindu’s just waiting for me to say a word against their “gods” or religion. But I did not. Instead we gave testimony after testimony of the Power of God in our lives, Miracles and such and then we stopped to allow Holy Spirit the freedom to come in the fullness of His Glory.

First I did an altar call several people stepped forward. I led in a sinners prayer through translators and then began to move through the crowd. This is what any who were there to spy the meeting would have seen to report back. The Power of God came down, people were suddenly speaking in tongues, some slain in the spirit, some jumping for joy but the witness of this had to be quite compelling. As God is faithful there was no disruption and many Miracles.

After the meeting was over is when we were told about the threat. It was nearly 11 o’clock by then as all were gathering chairs and speaking to one another. I was the first to walk to the car where an old woman was waiting. I had no translator with me at the time but I layed hands on her and began to pray. At that time pastor Samuel was present and I asked him to ask her if she wanted to receive Jesus. He said she wanted to come to the meeting but was afraid because of the threats but she was waiting for us…waiting  for Jesus. Hallelujah! Her countenance changed immediately and I could see the peace in her eyes. We hugged and said goodbye. It was a Glorious night!

Written by Patricia Torok

No Turning Back

Today I received an email requesting me to endorse the music ministry of Gordon Berry. My first response was this. I would not endorse any person I did not know  personally or of those whom I value their word.  He provided a link to his ministry page and God spoke! This very morning I was feeling anxious about my upcoming missions trip to India. The first time God called me to India was the year 2000. I remember that every cell in this human flesh was opposed! But my spirit is indeed stronger and I went. So much I learned and saw and experienced I can only tell you read the Ebook on my website “To India With Love.” God called again in 2007, 2010 and now I am bound for India Nov 1-21 just under 6 weeks from now. I was feeling anxious because of health problems but at no point thought to decline. I have already purchased my ticket and gotten my shots. I HAVE DECIDED TO FOLLOW JESUS.

This is how God used Gordon to lift my heart and encourage me that now I could jump on the plane tomorrow! Oops not yet packed! As soon as the page loaded it begins with a man telling the story of a man in a small village where…..India! The man is told to renounce Jesus and he and his family will live. The man thinks on the words of a song he had composed and began to sing “No Turning Back” . We are in the army of the Lord and there is no turning back if you have truly decided to follow Jesus. The story Gordon tells brought back to memory an experience I will share with you now.

It was my first visit in the year 2000. I had been there 3 weeks. All the revivals and street crusades were done and myself and 3 young pastors had gone for the day to visit church members and say my goodbyes. As we went crowds would gather all along the way people wanting prayed for and bringing their children out for me to Bless. One house we were invited to was the home of a Brahman priest. He was slain in the spirit and saved and delivered of alcoholism. Praise God. We continued on mile after mile into the deepest slum village. A woman came out frantically asking us to come pray for her dying husband. Scroll down to the blog “Saving Jeremiah” to read that story. What I didnt write in that story was  this.  It was dark now and we were a couple miles from our church, traveling along a dark road along a canal. It was just me and three very young pastors when we realized we were being followed by a mob. It was obvious they intended to overtake us which would have been very very easy to do , in the natural! In the natural the response might be to run or cry help. But that was not my response. I did not run nor speed up my pace. I turned to my young friends and said SING. They looked at me as if I was oblivious  that we were being trailed by a mob no doubt with murder in their hearts and a handy canal to dump our bodies. I said again SING. We began to sing, walking our same pace and singing Amazing Grace. The mob continued to follow us all the way back to the church but there remained a consistent gap between us. This is my belief. I believe if they could have closed the gap and killed us they would have. I believe they didn’t because God put angels between them and us.  That is my belief to this day. But if they had overtaken us I would have died declaring Jesus as Lord. No turning back. Not then, not now, not ever.

Hearing Gordon’s story today and India being mentioned within the first few minutes of the story was God confirming once again, “Follow me, to India for that is where I have called you. Fear not for I am with you says the Lord.”

I have embedded the link to Gordon’s website and I will write that recommendation. His passion for Jesus shines and the anointing in his voice is powerfully evident. It is my pleasure to introduce to to you the ministry of Gordon Berry.

I am leaving for India Nov 1st and returning Nov 21. Prophetess Deborah Butt from England is meeting up with me there and together with Ms Hannah Rao we hope to begin the ground floor of establishing the Hannah Home for orphan children. Please pray for us and the vision we share. I hope you will support this endeavor that was the vision given to Hannah. Read her testimony on the “About us” page.

Thank you for all your support in prayer and in finances. Shalom.

Saving Jeremiah

It gives me much pleasure to tell the story of Jeremiah’s Salvation. There was a day of well needed rest for me from my itinerary and then we were to go house to house/hut the following day to pray for our church members. We left around 10am that morning and began to make our rounds to the homes of our church members but we could not just visit our believers. I was known as friend of Jesus and the Hindu’s, believing that Jesus is a god and one with power to heal and to bless, they would crowd around us and bring their children in huddles to have them blessed or with the hope of healing. They would come out of their homes or huts, and beseech us to come in and pray for a sick family member, and so we did. I went into a hut to pray for an old woman suffering with fever. I laid my hand on her forehead which was very hot. I began to pray and in an instant the fever left and was cold to touch, and to God be all the glory.

Now it was dark, late evening, and we were near the end of our street to visit and then we would be going home. It was a long but productive day. One of our stops was at Pastor Jaya brother-in-law who was a broman priest and also seriously ill from alcohol addiction. Alcoholism is very common in India, even amongst the tribal’s, as it is very easy to make intoxic strength from a flower in abundance. He was slain in the Spirit and remained on the floor basking in the Spirit of God, and was saved and delivered from his addiction to alcohol. In late correspondence I would acquire from certain individuals to my utter delight he quit drinking and was living a Christian life.

We were almost ready to return to home when a woman ran out of her hut speaking frantically in local tongue. I did not know what she was saying but Jaya said “Mum, we must go quickly”. I started to walk briskly to the hut and all of a sudden in my spirit it was like anti-lock brakes! I stopped and Jaya and his brother VJ and joly, turned and asked “What is the matter Mum?” I said, We must pray the Lord’s Spirit must go before us and prepare the way. I had never feared going to any hut or house, even though you do not know the situation until you are actually there, but I knew we needed to pray for the Lord’s Spirit to go before us and prepare the way. When we entered the hut, lit only by one small kerosene lantern, we could see a man who was literally skin and bones and barely responsive. I said, “this man is dying. Ask him now if he wants to receive Jesus, for there is no salvation beyond the grave.” The man was suffering from a rare type of pneumonia prevalent among AIDS patients. His lifestyle and condition was no secret among the villagers.

He received Jesus that night and he was baptized. Hallelujah! We went back the following day to see how he was doing and I had to know for myself if he could recollect or remember the events of the night before. Did he remember that he was baptized and what that meant? He said yes and he was actually looking better and sitting propped looking alert. He said he felt very happy in his spirit. I offered to acquire medications for him from Dr. Rao but he promptly declined. I left India within the week but Pastor Jaya took him a meat meal on Thanksgiving day and visited him almost everyday until he died. One week prior to his death, he spoke and Jaya wrote his words as he gave his testimony to me. His old name was Ramulu, named after a popular Hindu god. He wanted to receive a Christian name which I chose for him. He was pleased with his new name, he liked it very much.

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Jeremiah’s words
Nov 30th 2000 

“Once I was a sinner and a dancer. I destroyed many girls lives. I have committed many sins in my life. Now my age is 27. I contracted AIDS from a girl I met a couple of years ago. After that I visited many hospitals to find a cure. The Doctors told me that I would die soon. Fearing the worst I adored many Hindu gods. I performed many rituals to all the Hindu deities, but there was no hope, no positive rsults. I lost all the strength in my body. I knew what was to come now, I knew that I will die. But on 16th Nov 2000, evening Sister Pat and Pastor Jaya came to my house. From that very moment my life was changed. When I heard about Salvation and received Baptism I got more strength in my spirit. I truly felt inner strength, and I had true peace for the first time in my life. I tried to please the Hindu deities for salvation but everything was in vain only causing more desolation. But I know in reality, that night Jesus came to my house through Sister Pat for me. Now I am very happy in my spirit and I have peace. If I got death right now, I know I will live with Jesus. So, I need not medicines. I got new life and new name. Please tell Sister Pat to pray for me daily.”

Jeremiah went to be with the Lord three weeks after the night of his Salvation and Baptism. He wrote this letter to me through the translation of Pastor Jaya, one week before he died. I know I will see him again.

“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23

Excerpt from the Ebook “To India with Love”
Written by Patricia Torok

CDs

CDs. We have several Cds to offer as thank you gifts for your support for our upcoming missions trip to India in November.

The Broadcast titled “The Glory” can also be obtained on CD for your own personal edification or as a witness tool for others.

Thank you,

Rev Pat Torok

“To India with Love”

In the beginning was the email, and the email was from India. To tell of a journey that began twelve years ago I must start at the beginning. I received an email from a young pastor telling me about his ministry, many facts about India and finally about his sick wife who was suffering from Tuberculosis and other medical conditions; and how he did not have the money for her medicine. I asked how much it would be in American currency, the sum of which turned out to be $72.oo Through a friend in California I was able to make contact with a medical doctor and pastor within a two hour drive from the couple. Sujatha eventually recovered and gave birth to a daughter seven months later!

I was invited to India and ministered with pastor Jaya and Sujatha but the divine connection that has lasted a dozen years now has been with Dr Rao and his wife Shohba and their lovely family, making them my own. Commissioned  by God as a missionary to India, I have visited three times hence, yr 2000, 2007 , 2010 and will be returning again the full month of November, 2012 with a young woman Deborah Butt from England. Deborah will be making her first missions trip to India but the first of many and as was prophesied, the first of many nations.

Miss Hannah Rao, Dr Rao’s daughter whom I have known since she was only seventeen years old was diagnosed in 2010 with stage four ovarian cancer which had matastisized outwardly. Such a diagnose is usually a death sentence BUT we serve a Mighty God! One year later Hannah is cancer free Glory to God! One evening a few months ago during an all night prayer service Hannah, now 29, was crying out to God about her future ministry and the Lord spoke and said you shall have to take care of many many children. Thus the vision for the Hannah Home, extension of Progressive Faith Ministries will be established this year. Deborah and I will be there for the ground level stage of what will become a wonderful home for Orphan and parentless children who will be taught the ways of the Lord, loved and nurtured, educated and spared the fate of India’s Orphans.

Note: the Rao’s are seen in this video from India Mission 2007 . Hannah is the young woman behind me, Rev Shohba beside me and Dr Rao in the front.

Written by Patricia Torok

Slideshow of India

Click on the photograph above to go to India Mission 2007 Slideshow

Prayer of Jabez – 1 Chronicles 4:10
“Oh Lord thank You that You have blessed us indeed, and enlarged our territory. Thank You that Your hand is always upon us, that You have kept us from evil that we havent caused pain. Thank You for answering our prayers.”