No Turning Back

Today I received an email requesting me to endorse the music ministry of Gordon Berry. My first response was this. I would not endorse any person I did not know  personally or of those whom I value their word.  He provided a link to his ministry page and God spoke! This very morning I was feeling anxious about my upcoming missions trip to India. The first time God called me to India was the year 2000. I remember that every cell in this human flesh was opposed! But my spirit is indeed stronger and I went. So much I learned and saw and experienced I can only tell you read the Ebook on my website “To India With Love.” God called again in 2007, 2010 and now I am bound for India Nov 1-21 just under 6 weeks from now. I was feeling anxious because of health problems but at no point thought to decline. I have already purchased my ticket and gotten my shots. I HAVE DECIDED TO FOLLOW JESUS.

This is how God used Gordon to lift my heart and encourage me that now I could jump on the plane tomorrow! Oops not yet packed! As soon as the page loaded it begins with a man telling the story of a man in a small village where…..India! The man is told to renounce Jesus and he and his family will live. The man thinks on the words of a song he had composed and began to sing “No Turning Back” . We are in the army of the Lord and there is no turning back if you have truly decided to follow Jesus. The story Gordon tells brought back to memory an experience I will share with you now.

It was my first visit in the year 2000. I had been there 3 weeks. All the revivals and street crusades were done and myself and 3 young pastors had gone for the day to visit church members and say my goodbyes. As we went crowds would gather all along the way people wanting prayed for and bringing their children out for me to Bless. One house we were invited to was the home of a Brahman priest. He was slain in the spirit and saved and delivered of alcoholism. Praise God. We continued on mile after mile into the deepest slum village. A woman came out frantically asking us to come pray for her dying husband. Scroll down to the blog “Saving Jeremiah” to read that story. What I didnt write in that story was  this.  It was dark now and we were a couple miles from our church, traveling along a dark road along a canal. It was just me and three very young pastors when we realized we were being followed by a mob. It was obvious they intended to overtake us which would have been very very easy to do , in the natural! In the natural the response might be to run or cry help. But that was not my response. I did not run nor speed up my pace. I turned to my young friends and said SING. They looked at me as if I was oblivious  that we were being trailed by a mob no doubt with murder in their hearts and a handy canal to dump our bodies. I said again SING. We began to sing, walking our same pace and singing Amazing Grace. The mob continued to follow us all the way back to the church but there remained a consistent gap between us. This is my belief. I believe if they could have closed the gap and killed us they would have. I believe they didn’t because God put angels between them and us.  That is my belief to this day. But if they had overtaken us I would have died declaring Jesus as Lord. No turning back. Not then, not now, not ever.

Hearing Gordon’s story today and India being mentioned within the first few minutes of the story was God confirming once again, “Follow me, to India for that is where I have called you. Fear not for I am with you says the Lord.”

I have embedded the link to Gordon’s website and I will write that recommendation. His passion for Jesus shines and the anointing in his voice is powerfully evident. It is my pleasure to introduce to to you the ministry of Gordon Berry.

I am leaving for India Nov 1st and returning Nov 21. Prophetess Deborah Butt from England is meeting up with me there and together with Ms Hannah Rao we hope to begin the ground floor of establishing the Hannah Home for orphan children. Please pray for us and the vision we share. I hope you will support this endeavor that was the vision given to Hannah. Read her testimony on the “About us” page.

Thank you for all your support in prayer and in finances. Shalom.

It’s Your Love

Towards the end of year 2011 it was prophesied that I would write two songs. Living Water was written and recorded in 2000. Lo and behold as prophesy that is “accurate” I wrote “Ode To Abba” Jan 30, 2012. One down…one to go. I cannot just sit and determine to write a song, I never could. I have to be inspired. Well today, somewhere between Walmart and Home Depot I started singing a song in my head and the words were just flowing. I came home, got my guitar and started writing.

Well it used to be I was so afraid,
Didn’t know it but I’d lost my way.
Just a face in the crowd with my head in the clouds,
Trying hard to survive all the pain deep inside.
Always searching, I was so confused
Making choices, didn’t know what to do
But then You came along, now Im singing this song,
Got to tell everyone what has made me so strong.
God it’s Your love that makes me see,
And it’s Your love that has set me free,
Nothing else is secure, It’s a dangerous world
But the darkness will hide from Your glorious light.
God it’s Your love
It’s a new day and I’m so amazed,
Of the changes in my life You’ve made.
Holy Spirit come and live through me,
Now my life is in You, come and make me a new – creation.
God it’s Your love, that has turned me around,
And it’s Your love, that has made me sound,
In my mind and my soul, no more loosing control
Cos I give it to You, yes I give You my soul.
God it’s Your love, that makes me smile,
And it’s Your love flowing deep from inside,
Like a river that flows, from the depths of my soul.
It’s a wellspring of life, cause You’re living inside.
It’s Your love
Now I’m taking, what You’ve given me,
I’m no longer, what I used to be,
I’m not taking the blame, I’m no longer the same,
For the old man is dead and I’m risen again
With You Jesus, Jesus
I love You Jesus
Cause it’s Your love … that saved me Jesus.

I think it still needs a bridge but I feel before the week is out my new second song will be finished and I will add it to the Ode To Abba CD along with another original “His Name Is Jesus” Id forgotten to add. So….stay tuned….two more songs to be added to the Ode To Abba CD.

Also, the cover picture I am using was my friend just playing with her new phone near sundown. At first glance I knew it was my cover photo. I welcome your comments.

Oh and……..yesterday I went and got my 2 photos to renew my passport which expired last year but my visa for India is good till 2015. I filled out the form, send photos and money order and my new passport should arrive in 4-8 weeks. Mission accomplished.

Warrior Bride

Warrior Bride by Alberto and Kimberly Rivera

The Warrior Bride comes from a place of government, authority, rule and reign. In this she partners with Christ, being made ‘perfect’ through Him to reign as part of the monarchy. Through the redemption of her Husband, she was crowned Queen and became Royalty. 1 Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”

From the position of His throne He declared “I give authority to trample serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy” Luke 10:19. “And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover” Mark 16:17-18.

Patricia recounts the experience of being bitten by a venomous snake, a water moccasin in  the Summer 1988. Within 15 minutes she suffered from high fever, chills and neurological disturbances. By the time she got home she was too sick to be aware of her physical condition and did not seek medical attention but went to bed. She was deathly ill for three days but on the fourth day was fully recovered.

Paul gives an even more striking example in Acts 28:3-5 “And when Paul had gathered a bundle of sticks, and laid them on the fire, there came a viper out of the heat, and fastened on his hand. And when the barbarians saw the venomous beast hang on his hand, they said among themselves, No doubt this man is a murderer, whom, though he hath escaped the sea, yet vengeance suffereth not to live. 5And he shook off the beast into the fire, and felt no harm.”

We are in a time of great warfare. We are in a time of great shaking. We are in a time where governments are colliding. We need to radically hear from Heaven. We need to remain in the secret place; the shadow of the Almighty; the resting place with the love of Christ, living in intimacy but going through warfare.

1 Peter 5:8-12Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.11 To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen”

Written by Deborah Butt and Patricia Torok

In reference to her role as His Bride click link to a previous blog on ‘The Bride of Christ’

Ode To Abba

 In January of this year I began working on a song that was more of a prayer/conversation with God. There are always times when God seems so near and His presence can be felt as tangible as sensing the feeling of being “Held”. I remember the last time I felt this. The date was easy, 1/2/12.  On Jan 2nd, 2012 I was laying on my air mattress in my living room. I had taken communion, anointed myself as I do almost daily, and layed there just reaching and calling out to Him to be held. And I felt His presence so strong I wept as it was as I was literally in His arms for about an hour.It was as though I did not feel the mattress beneath me only the feeling of being held, which is what I was asking “Jesus just hold me.” These times of intimacy are vital to keep our love alive. Jesus is the lover of our soul. We are His Bride, His beloved. But when God withdraws is it because we’ve done some grievous sin or He has drifted from us? No never! He will never leave us or forsake us. It is we who get so caught up in our lives …even if that is doing ministry, that we can forget that the most important thing in our daily life is Jesus and not what we are doing for Him but with him. God will allow us the room to grow and wait for us to notice that he does not “feel” as near. But in fact he is within us. May we never forget that even when it feels like we are alone we do not access our relationship based on emotions but based in fact. FACT: we abide in Him and He abides in us. When I feel a distance I call out to my lover Jesus and in this case wrote my conversation with him in the form of a song.

I wrote the bridge just a half hour before recording. The last line “Jesus hold me in your arms and seal me with a kiss” He knows how genuinely I mean it and at that moment I was overwhelmed with His love. In fact in the studio we had to redo the last line as I choked on my own emotions.  The song is finished and as I play it over and over it is like our dance. Abide in Him always and He shall abide in you. Through every trial, twist and turn in my life, it is that abiding truth which is the strength of my soul.

 “Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.John 15:4

(click on the photo to listen to the song)

It is Finished!